awkward

ok...so i am very aware that i should have posted much more recently than now. and i have felt like something was missing since i haven't been updating at all.

oh, and ireland was aboslutely amazing. it was all i was expecting, plus so much more.

the truth is, for the last few weeks i was struggling with the awkward-ness that comes with having just quit my job. gasp. can you believe it? in this economy, someone would actually QUIT a well-paying job when nothing else was lined up?

i know it seems unrealistic to you. i think that's part of why i haven't posted until now. i didn't know what to say. just like when i see someone i haven't seen recently and their first question is 'how is your job!?' yeah...about that.

i'm tired of feeling like i need to have a whole speech ready, or any justification to back up my reasoning. my job made me miserable. not wanting to go to bed miserable, because that meant i had to wake up and go to work. not able to enjoy the weekend miserable, because sunday was always too short and monday would inevitably come too quickly.

i stopped doing it because i felt like it was affecting my 'person.' there were about two weeks when i didn't know what i would do to pay my bills and it was scary, but it was exciting at the same time. i have now secured a position at the angus barn, raleigh's #1 restaurant and i begin tomorrow.

i still have that excited feeling. not necessarily for the angus barn, but for what is ahead. i honestly feel i still have so much ahead of me. i was beginning to feel that 'stuck' feeling at bmc, and i feel free again. i'm exciting to have my days to spend learning my camera and my nights to make money.

i don't know what is in store for me, but i know it's going to be great. i'm meant for something great, i'm sure.

in light of this fresh start, feel free to check out my new awesome (photo) blog: www.ashleykathrynlewis.blogspot.com